Getting to know me and my history

I want to take a min and tell you a little about myself and where I come from. I am  5' 2, 313 lbs, wife and mother of two. I am the youngest of 3 kids in my family. My oldest brother is an always on the go dad who is married to a personal trainer. He is a healthy active man who loves to coach his 2 boys in soccer and wrestling. My other brother is an extreme sportsman. He lives in Utah where he mt. bikes down some of the most dangerous trails. He also rock climbs up the face of some insainly high moutains. Neither one of my brothers are ones to sit and do nothing. I was told by both of them as a kid that I was adopted. I always new they were tesing me. But if you look at pic of all of us you may question it. I look nothing like them or my parents. Which by the way both of my parents are healthy looking from the outside and not over weight.

As a kid I always hated doing family actives. I was always the one who couldn't keep up or had to stop multiple times. There were many days I was in tears and wished I wasn't part of the family. As I grew up I played sports, b- ball, soccer and ski/snowboard. But I still was the heviest on every team every time. My parents pushed me to be active that was sometimes a good thing but I offten hated them for it.

When I meet my husband 9 yrs ago that is when I really started to pack on the weight. Jason was a bigger guy himself. This made me feel very confortable when we were dating. I had no problem ordering a big juicy burger and fries when we went out. He had different hobbies than myself. He grew up hunting, shooting, and camping.  I had no problem adapting to these hobbies.

At the age of 20 I had my first child, Ashley. While pregnant I loved tasting the rainbow. I had a bad addiction to skittles. I gained 70lbs. I honestly didn't think much of it. I had figured after I delivered it would take me a few months but I would be back down to the weight I was or close to it. LOL I was wrong. After realizing I wasn't sheding the pounds like I hoped I just figured in the near future it would come off. I thought as Ashley got oldler I would be doing more to keep up with her. Wrong again. There were playpins and babygates. Then three years later I became pregnet with our son Hunter. This time Not only did I gain weight but Ashley too. This was a rough pregancy. I wasn't a good mom to Ash during this time. I remember pushing the couch against the back door so she wouldn't go out back and play. I would lay on the couch doing nothing not knowing the damage I was doing to my daughter. Til this day I still have alot of guilt and blame myself for her weight issues.

So the years keep passing, we lost friends and family beacause our life styles became so different. We also got to know new people but unforently they we like us, lazy. All that did was bring out the worst in both of our familys. Both of our kids play sports year round and each year I sit in the stands. I am the loudest parent only beacuse I can't get out there and show them support any other way. Every year I say next year will be different, I will be on the court, feild, or mat with them. Of course that hasn't come true yet. I am not blaming anyone for my weight. No one forced me to to be the way I am. Enough is enough and I WILL be a healthy, happy, active mom and wife! Whats my plan u ask????